Friday, May 6, 2011

Who's right and who's wrong...

Ever have an argument with somebody who always has to be right and won't back down or even consider they could be wrong? You stand there face to face or face to chat window or looking at the phone receiver thinking to yourself...

Am I missing something?
Am I the one who isn't thinking clearly?
Am I the only one that doesn't see it?

Growing up my Dad was confrontational with people, argumentative, and had more then a bit of a temper. Many people see their dad's that way and only feared the spank.

I took it a step further...

At a young age, probably around 4 or 5, I consciously decided that I wasn't going to be like my Dad and I've tried to become that to a fault. I am a none confrontationalist, who basically gets walked all over. Doesn't mean I won't fight when backed right into a corner, but look how long it took in my marriage to finally put my foot down, 12 year (2 would be called okay).

And even with many other friends telling me I'm not the crazy one I still spend a lot of time questioning my motives, decisions, am I crazy, to far gone, self worth, as a father, as a person, and who I really am now.

My wife, because currently she still is but we're sep'd, is on a crap load of meds for pain, mental issues, anxiety issues, and other health reasons considers me... The one who cooked, cleaned, did laundry, ran the kids everywhere and attempted to look after finances (I'm getting better at this one)... I'm the depressed and mentally ill one.

So I've left and I seem to be doing a million times better except whenever I have a discussion with her... Hmmmmm... But I'm the one that needs to be hospitalized...

There are some people and some arguments that you will never win no matter what it seems.

One of my favourite lines, whether you're religious or not, is "God will only give you what you can handle, but I sure wish he'd underestimate me a little more often."

"Bang your head!"

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